Prayers

I would like to ask all of you to pray for a little Korral friend we know.  His name is Draigen.  He is around 18 months old.  Not sure what kind of cancer he has but he was given 4-6 weeks to live.  They got to go to Disney World last weekend.  It had to be cut short due to the time frame he was given.  His counts are going up though.  His grandma is still asking for a miracle.  Please pray for him and his family.

Coltrane had a great morning.  We toured him around the hospital in a red wagon.  We watched the flying butterflies on the ceiling, the color changing waterfall, and saw two very unique and relaxing spaces in the hospital.  

The MAB hit him after about 2 hours into it.  He was crazy and was in a lot of pain.  He is calmer now as we upped the dosage of pain meds.  Usually the first day is the worst.  We are praying that we found the right doses of meds and the rest of the week will be smooth sailing.

It's Coltrane's second day and he's been very good today.  A little cranky here and there but we think his pain meds are right on the money.  He rested up a lot.  

This has been such an emotional and spiritual roller coaster for us.  We just heard of yet another death in our unit, which makes seven kids we've known whom have died on our floor.  It's horrible to think about.  You feel so bad for the families and there are just no words.  I can't imagine.  It's so rough to watch these parents and grandparents go through such tragedy, especially involving a young child.  It's just sickening.  And it makes us ill to think it could happen to us too.  

On the other hand, I have these moments where I think to myself "Man, if Coltrane ever died, it would be alright."  Please don't take this the wrong way.  It would crush us completely.  But the fact that I know God and his heart and loves us and that my little son would beat me to where God lives, that's incredible!  I have trust in God, not in the world.  Yes, it would be terrible, but I am not in control.  And that He has a plan that surpasses everyone's knowledge no matter how hard we try to get what we think is best.  Weep for those who are born and rejoice when those who die.  A hard pill to swallow, but it's reality. And more so in dealing with innocent children.

I like to remember King David and what he went through with his first born son with Bathsheba.  I prayed and prayed for God to spare his son.  God didn't spare him.  As soon as David's child was dead, he began rejoicing to the Lord, while his counselors were baffled.  What an inspiration.  And God has used what happened to him as a great example to so many I'm sure, including us.

Please continue to pray for us and for:

Coltrane's fever to go away and not come back

Us to get great rest

Attacks on us to cease

Please pray for:

Coltrane to not be in so much pain

For him to sleep well

For his cough and tummy ache to be cured

For us to relax and trust our Father

For us to remember that this is about God's plan, not what we might try to plan

Thank you so much!  We love you all!

Love,

Justin

Sonja

Jackson

and Coltrane the Strongbow